Joyous day. I spent the day with Blake, Red, Jamie, and Eric at the beach. I love the feeling of the cool sand between my bare toes. The roaring of the ocean washing forward and back, forward, and back, forward and back makes me feel peaceful, happy, serene.
The best part, of course, was being with my family. Red is a brother, the boys my children, Blake? I still do not know what to call Blake. I don't wish to call him a friend for he is more than a platonic friend. We kiss, and I feel hopeful that someday he will make me his wife.
Jamie and Eric had such fun racing the waves. They would run out when the waves went out, and then race to the beach trying to reach it before the wave reached them. Red, Blake, and I all joined them. I had on a "Bathing Costume," that I made for myself. It consists of a blouse, then a strange garment that is rather like long underwear only there are no sleeves, just straps, and it does not go all the way to my ankles but about calf length. I made it out of lovely fabric that does NOT become invisible when it is wet. I have a cap that matches that keeps my hair from getting filled with salty water.
The beach was deserted today. It's late in the summer and the days are getting shorter and colder. It was wonderful to have that stretch of sand just for us, for my family. I am so grateful that I have a family.
Eric is so strong, so calm. He always can make me smile with his loving, thoughtful ways.
Jamie...Jamie is a busy boy...always wanting to test things...always wanting to see how things work. It takes all three of us to keep Jamie from hurting himself!
Today while we were eating Jamie ran on his stout, chubby little legs right into the water. He would have been carried out to sea if Blake did not run so fast. Blake grabbed him out of the ocean as Jamie began to sink.
It took quite awhile before my heart went back to beating normally after that experience. Blake paddled Jamie's bottom. I cried, but it did not take very long before Jamie again ran into the waves. This time Red saved him, and then paddled him.
Honestly, that little boy has caused Red, Blake, and I more than a few gray hairs, and he's not yet 5 years old! I worry for the future!
Eric in the meantime is contented with building cities out of sand. He builds roadways, homes, stores, and arranges fields for growing crops, raising livestock, and then peoples all of those places with humans made from sand.
I can't decide if he will become a great artist, or a city planner! Whatever Eric does I know that he will make this world a better place.
Jamie...well in the immortal words of Mark Twain, "He will either become President of the United States, or he will be hung..." Dearest diary, please understand that I laugh as I write this. Jamie will be a GREAT man. He will be a leader more than a follower. He will not let a small thing like fear keep him from achieving his dreams!
Well good-night diary. I must sleep. Tomorrow I am back at work..and sigh, I have an appointment with Lucille Bond. I know that she loved Ardis, Blake's first wife, and that is part of the reason that she hates me, because she feels like I'm trying to replace Ardis in Blake and the boys lives. Her constantly smug and superior way is almost too annoying to be born!
Well now I am WIDE awake! Maman always told me to pray before sleep. She said that it calmed you so that sleep was more restful. "Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take. Amen"
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